Just do it

"Just do it Kenny! Stop procrastinating! You need to make the first move, for everything that you desire for! --

Feel

Everything seems surreal, underneath a majestic aurora.
Your charm and your voice were the colours that whispers into my ears.
We were waiting for promises, that seems to lead no where.
Time with you was always packed with fun and endless excitement.
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Do you feel me, as I patiently make my approach?
My weakness says that I care too much.
Thoughts of you is always clouded with uncertainties over high walls.
No clear sight of path that to guide me towards your heart. 
Do you ever know how I really felt towards you.
As your name keep spinning inside of me.
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Do you feel me, as I patiently make my approach?
My weakness says that I care too much.
Will I be the gentlemen that you constantly seek to be with?
Show me a sight, a sight that will unlock your heart.
Do you ever know how I really felt towards you.
As your name keep spinning inside of me.
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Do you feel me, as I patiently make my approach?
The sky will find us, because the past is real.
Just so real, so real to feel.

Loser of the day, me!

'I just cannot relate myself to the word ' Fail ', I just can't take it. It's consuming me alive, from inside out!' --

I got this weird feelings way before the examination date, the unforeseen sighs of failure surrounds me indefinitely, so surreal. In the end, I was caught off guard. My paramount level of confidence came pledging like a free falling stone. It hit me rock bottom. A lesson to learn over and over again, but I just seems to realize how serious it can be if you over look over uncertainties. Never assume and never place all your bets on pure luck, it will go against you.

I hate to relate myself to failure, I can't be part of it. It's agonizing me.

I need to get back to winning formula immediately. I will retake the test asap. I'm urgently need to get the demon out of me.

Maybe all this crap crush relationship is distracting me constantly. I need to be focus again and pursuit for what really matters and materialistic.

'Loser for the day; I have all myself to blame for.'--

'For he will always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy
about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more.
He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate
satisfaction.' --

Aren't a player

The game of 'Love' isn't just created for everyone, for certain, I'm definitely one of them. It is just so mentally exhausting for me, personally.

'Someone is driving me crazy for her.' --

The 'Chasing phrase', one can term it, is in particularly difficult for me to pull in through and let's not to mention about the 'Maintaining phrase' in details.

I'm such a loser in relationship. I'm aren't a player for this type of game. For all I do was only 'Flirt' around and that's all. Period.

I'm so mentally drained out even at the initial stage of chasing, how am I gonna achieve my intention?

I suspect/believe/confirm must be lacking of persistence and faith in myself. Every time I bow out at intervals. I don't know why. Unprepared? Can't commit? Maybe.

'Let nature takes it's course', is what I always used to console myself. But w/o one fighting for a chance doesn't nothing at all in the end?

I don't know man. All I know is this particular girl has certainly caught my attention in comprehensively. I reckon myself giving a shot to it and do what I supposed to do, just follow the rules and stay to it. Nothing should go wrong.

Am I a perfectionist? This is a question that I had never ask myself before. I don't think I am. But I do know that I have multiple personalities to handle with. Always keeping myself occupied.

Gotta embark myself into a new stage of 'Internship' next week. Gotta get serious and focus. For my career is still the number top priorities in my life now.

'I'm such a loser in 'Love', God pls enlighten me.' --

P.S. Maybe it's just only a crush afterall.

Rocky Balboa

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.

Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that! -- Rocky Balboa